The persistent yet invisible word-burden that always seems to infiltrate every barrier I put up.
The kids. Aaron. Church. Ministry. Needs. Have to's. Should have's. Want to's.
It pushes, and pushes and pushes some more.
The language of Hurry always brings friends along with it. Failure. Frustrations. Overwhelming. Just to name a few.
Mirrored in the eyes of the precious two gifts I've been entrusted with, I see my reflection. An unsettling image. One that I don't want duplicated.All too often I have seen
Their disappointed faces at my too quick and too ready responses.
Their sadness at my all too often "Schedule" we live in.
So today I decided to be brave.
Pray a courageous prayer.
"Change MY heart."
I asked the Lord to help me to lay down the Hurry-burden, along with it's friends. To find the beauty of now. The perfect picture of grace by the moment.
It began with sitting humbly at the Saviors feet. Where mercy and grace are free. Second chances are given. And "Super-Moms-In-Training" learn a very important lesson...forgiveness freely dispersed by my sweet little blue eyed boy, whose mohawk isn't too tough to forgive his mama when she asks.
We have since completed 30 min of "mad-house-cleaning", swinging outside, watching a movie, doing each of us our own devotions, playing with Libs, picking peaches at Nana's, and now we are enjoying the delicious smell of fresh cobbler in the oven.
Want to see the miraculous? The taste and see that He is good moment?
I've accomplished everything on my "schedule", all the extra's with the kids, and even have had time to spare! God is good. Always. Even when this Jesus-girl stumbles along learning to Take Time...
Thanks for sharing this, Erin! Really needed to hear it! Lately I've been struggling with feeling like a "Martha"... going, going, going all the time! Trying to just get everything done that needs to be done during the day. I know it's not right, and I LONG to be a "Mary", taking time just to 'be'. But then I think, well, how will all the stuff get done then? Who else will do it? (Like meals being made, the house cleaned-up, kids taken care of, etc.) This reminded me to PRAY about it... asking Him to guide and direct my day, giving me wisdom to know when I need to just 'be' and let things go for a while. Thanks Erin! I'm so sorry to hear about you and your family's loss in your friend Sherry. Rejoicing that she is no longer in pain and suffering, but in the Lord's presence. Yet, grieving for you and her friends and family who loved and miss her. Love you, my friend.
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